Unfortunetly, I didn't listen and spent several years reading up on this stuff. Luckily, at some point, my brain started working and I woke up.
Apocalyptic writings were quite popular at that time, we find them in the Dead Sea scrolls and at least five others in the Nag Hammadi Library. They all read like an abused 10 year old yelling "My big brother is gonna kick your butt!" to the bully who just took his lunch money. Adolescent revenge fantasies.
Here's a link to the Nag Hammadi texts.