What do you believe your purpose is.  What is it that keeps you going, the thing that allows you to get up every day. What is your purpose in your life, if you believe there is one.  Are you closer to an existentialist? Are you an existentialist nihilist?  Or do you believe there is a greater purpose, designed or otherwise.

I have problems doing some of the simple things in life because I feel jaded and have no desire for more money or for relationships, so I just do enough to pay rent. 

The reason I ask is because I'm curious as to what drives you and what you want to achieve.