I have so much empathy for John McCain, I'm looking at him and he's so sick, so out of touch, it hurts, it is painful. I don't mean physically sick, and I'm not being agist, I'm sure he's in great shape for his age. I just feel so bad for him. I believe he honestly has worked his whole life to get to where he is, I do believe that at one point he really did have a moral center. I do believe that the Rovians believed in a permanent republican majority, probably one in which Bush's ratings would be now higher than they are and we'd be looking at say four years of Jeb or something to that effect. I don't believe that the republicans are happy with McCain and I believe he's bent over backwards and sold his soul and lost his moral center and all that good ish. But on the other hand, all the empathy is tempered by a fear, sort of a ying yang thing.
I want to talk about terror.
Terror.
I am terrified of a McCain presidency. Terrified. More than just fear, terror. 4, 8 16 more years of Bush/McCain/CIA/lies/tortur
e/war/hatred/lies, 4 more years of waiting, four more years of denial, four more years of being told wise up only cheaters win and it ain't cheating if you don't get caught, and even if you get caught, it ain't getting caught if you destroy the evidence or better yet buy off the judges. I'm so sick of finding out things like Alito has 100,000 in exxon stock, after the fact, after he recuses himself (whatever) and exxon walks away from Valdez once again. I am terrified of a McCain presidency. When a baby is crying, you mollify it, you give it a bottle or a breast or whatever, you calm the fears and tell it the sky ain't falling, the world isn't that scary. Fuck the war on terror. Calm me like a fucking crying baby, tell me there won't be a McCain presidency, erase my terror, take away my fear, if for just five minutes. Give me the audacity to hope. Audacity, that's a five dollar word. Audacity.
Oh them uppity folk they bein audacious. Oh the audacity of them kids thinkin they know how to run things here. Audacity. But it is what I need, I lost hope after I lost trust after I lost faith. Does anyone trust the government anymore? Could we actually hope with a hundred year war looming, with a ten trillion dollar deficit, with 5 dollar gas and hundred and forty dollar oil, with GM going under, with a recession mixed with inflation looming, do we have the audacity to hope that the government can find a way out of it for us? Sure sure a lot of people will say don't be negative, we need that American pride, that natural optimism, sure sure all business cycles come around, it might take a while but we'll get out of it. I don't doubt all that, but a cynical and realistic worldview which is the current cultural pulse is really just the agenda being set by the republicans and adopted by certain portions of the Clinton machine, it goes back to the welfare state, that all that is needed is more individual independent can do spirit. It is the shit we're going to be fed by ads for the next few months, that all we need is more tax cuts for small businesses to grow our way out of the second great depression. And you're just lazy if you can't pull yourself up from your bootstraps. First let me just backtrack for a second and make a distinction between the Clinton era welfare reform and the current McCain tax plan, I don't want there to be any doubt they are black and white night and day apart, but they are part of the same world, the same world view. All we need is more entrepreneurial spirit, all we need is....
A lot of people are currently questioning Barack's move to the center. You dance with the girl you came with. If you believe him so far, have a little faith that he knows what he's doing. Realize if Barack is elected he is president of all the people. There are some Americans who will never accept him as president (Karl Rove for starters, Rush for another, I'm guessing most of the KKK) but whether or not they accept it, if he is elected he is their president too. How do you govern people who not only do not accept you but hate you. George W. Bush had a 90 percent approval rating after 9/11. People gave him the benefit of the doubt. He lost his credibility on his own. The real problem is that many won't ever give the Obama presidency a chance, won't give him the benefit of the doubt. Of course if Barack makes an outreach effort to the 20 percent of the country that probably won't ever accept him, he's going to turn off his base.
To me the audacity to hope means giving Barack the benefit of the doubt, means not questioning him right now on FISA, on opting out, even on the pullout. The current theme seems to be whining about Barack playing us out, flip flopping just like any other politician, which is then echoed by the cynical refrain I knew it would happen all along, followed by this defeatist this is what always happens dems cave and flip when they should stand strong tune. Give the man a break, please. Just trust him for five minutes long enough to believe maybe, just maybe he knows what he's doing. He didn't get where he is by accident, he might just know a thing or two about running for office and getting elected.

I'm just so disgusted by all the negativity, we're going to be awash washed over by a tsunami tide of filth from the furious to the frustrated, 30 second spots and recurring sound bites from the 527 pac swiftboat crowd. We're going to be fucking drowning in negativity pretty soon, why the fuck would you want to add to it?!? Give the man a break, please.